Please hold me, don't let me fall out of your heart.

You step into my life,

"Please don't get out, Ineedyou.."

17Nov,

Went out to celebrate baby's mummy the birthday. Baby's mummy birthday at 19Nov, early celebrate. Went to East coast there the Jumbo and eat. Yumyum, Ate alot. Eat until my stomach seriously like going to burst man! Stuff to much food in already, bth. Eat abit dessert, eat finish. Go shit, seriously bth!

Shit finish already, went to parkway I think. Shopshopshop! Went to Hang Ten, Bought 1 Long sleeve shirt same as baby. I can wear xs, but I think S is longer and cuter. So I bought S. Bought 2 Tanktop, Yellow and White. Baby's mummy buy for me :) Thanks!

After that, we go buy water drink. Than go cold storage. Baby go shit awhile. Done already, baby keep on want to buy the Katekyoshi hitman reborn the Vongola rings. So baby's dad bought for him. Baby very noisy! Baby's dad say, those for his birthday. I keep tell baby, Wasted! Aha! Bought his stupid things already, went home.

Baby is sleeping soundly now, Hehe. Me and baby's meimei awake.

1More days to our 10month anniversery, same as baby's mum birthday date. 19th's :)

Eventho we don't celebrate, I still think it's special. Time past so fast.

Baby, I've no idea how to express my feeling toward you. I just wish that you know, I really love you alot. Every night, I keep worrying you would leave me one day. I really scare.. I can't imagine my life without you. It's not that I don't trust you, It's just that i'm afraid. I really love you. I scare that, we might slowly fading away. You told me you really love me, you told me to trust you. Why is it so hard for me to believe your words? I mean, I really trying so hard to trust you. But, the past are really.. Painful whenever I think about it, I feel so scare that it will happen again and again. You said that, you won't do it again. Bbi, just give me sometimes. :) . No matter what, I still will love you. Luvdieyou my babyboy. I feel so guilty, I feel so fcukedup. You luvs me, you trust me. Yet I still don't trust you. What kind of girlfriend am I? Geezz.